RAIN RAIN, GO AWAY

Flip flop

I can't believe it. It's been almost 3 years but I don't know why the reaction is still so strong. I saw Six online and my heart did a double flip. I know he must've blocked me ages ago but I just want so much to talk to him. I just want to know how is he getting on and let's face it, I wanna know how he's getting on without me and whether that piece of shit is getting married.

Crap. I'm home and online again. AND logged into ICQ, something which I haven't done in agessss. He's still online and still in NA. Why am I still so hung up over him? I have a bf now whom I reckon has the following qualities:

1)cute
2)sometimes quite sweet
3)parents like him alot
4)sensual
5)have the same hobbies i do (more or less)
6)likes dogs

Is this considered as betraying Mr Orange? I don't mean to, honestly I don't. I just can't help it. I don't know how to explain it and why I'm so stupid to even keep thinking about him or wanting to talk to Six. I mean I don't love him anymore and I love Mr Orange, I really do. Anyway, I'm just gonna go off from ICQ and this cruel world.

posted by xblowfishx @ 8:27 PM