Betrayal
Guess what? I'm not overly sensitive after all. Found out on Saturday night that Mr Orange's sleeping with another girl. Hurts so friggin bad. Can't believe it. Stupid fuck. He had the cheek to tell me he's not serious with her and only loves me. If you love someone, you'd consider their feelings and don't do shitty things like that behind their back.
He says he's sorry and give him last chance. I'm very confused and scared honestly. It's the character of a person. If they have a tendency to be unfaithful, it will always be this way. He promised that it will never ever happen again and he'll do everything he can to earn my trust back.
All I can say is at the end of everything, only God is there. However small and insignificant we may seem, he knows every one of us and our pain.
naggy thoughts
I've been with Mr Orange close to a year now but I just realized how little I know about him or how little I understand him. I thought that this time round I can be cool and take things as they come but I've still got the same spots.
He's been very busy lately with work, and an opportunity opened up for him. This is great, downside is he's away alot and the times he's around, he's always with B. Honestly speaking, I feel very insecure right now because it doesn't seem that his plans include me at any point. It seriously doesn't help that he's acting all mysterious and closing his phone when I'm around. I know other girls msg him but we've never had this problem of secrecy before. Why why why??? Is it just me?
His life is too full right now to accomodate me and frankly, I think he's not ready to be in a steady relationship. I feel terrible. What is my problem??? Why can't I just relax? I don't wanna be so uptight all the time either. Crap, life sucks
