RAIN RAIN, GO AWAY

Tuesday blues~~

Today is only Tuesday, I wonder how am I going to get through the rest of the week. I miss Mr Orange very much :( but I know this is not what I can accept. I hate to say it and always try to make excuses for him to justify his actions but the truth is, he IS a womanizer. And the worse thing is, he is exactly like some of those guys you read about in the newspapers that got caught for cheating women through the net. How come I can be with a guy like that for more than a year and still love him???? I am soooooo blind and I feel soooooo humiliated.

Last night I went out with Ben and his friends for a drink. His friends opened this really cool joint at Dempsey. It's a nice place, not too noisy and not too crowded. Most of them are quite nice, especially Ad. He was talking to me the whole night and he asked me a question which until now I don't know the answer. What do I REALLY want? Anyway, Ben told me he used to be the same and that's why Maris left him. His advise was, people don't change and asked me to forget it. He said he only changed after 5 years and he also said Mr Orange is already not that young and his mentality is still so immature.

I was reading through my past entries and started even as early as July last year, he was already giving me shit. Why do I want to torture myself with all these insecurities. I am fine now. I don't need him. I am FINE....... ok, eventually I will be. Soon enough. Maybe in another 2 weeks I would have totally gotten over him. Yup. 2 more weeks and I'll be fine. I just need 2 more weeks thats all. Don't need a liar and a cheat in my life. Yup yup.

posted by xblowfishx @ 10:09 AM