RAIN RAIN, GO AWAY

Upped the ante

I just met Mr Orange for dinner. He's going off to SFO tomorrow and he said he wanted to meet me for dinner to celebrate my birthday since he won't be around. He bought me flowers and an ice cream cake, after which we went for dinner.

He dropped me downstairs my office to pick up my car. After which he didn't even msg or call to see if I'm safely at my car considering it's pretty late and the carpark's deserted. I wonder if the ante's been upped, and I have higher expectations of what's to come. There's just so many questions around him. So many ??? so much insecurity. He really doesn't give me the feeling that he has changed. When we were out just now, I saw him looking at other girls. I know it's normal for guys to look at other girls but for him it's different.

There's no consistency with his behaviour, except he's unfaithful lol. I really hope that he can change. I want to believe so much but it's so hard. He still doesn't give me any reassurance at all. In fact, only more ???????? sigh.. when is this ever gonna end. I know I know, it doesn't end because I'm allowing it. It's just so hard to do so when he's always still around in my life.

posted by xblowfishx @ 11:01 PM