RAIN RAIN, GO AWAY

Recent Events

We finally went ahead with the dating agency after countless talks and rather sluggish action. V Day is about to come up and we got invited to co-host CheckMate at White Rabbit. Basically I got all the paperwork up within a week and now we are waiting for our namecards and the website to be up.

I am very excited about this, the fact that we actually went ahead with our plans and our very first publicity stunt is going to happen this Saturday!! I've been very jittery these few probably due to lack of sleep and also nervous about the turn out.

I miss Ste so dreadfully. Saw him a couple of days ago and he told me that Glen is going to be in town. He called yesterday to talk and asked how are things with me and what have I been up to. I asked what he was up to for Valentine's day and he hesitated and said nothing. I know he doesn't wanna go out with me but I just mentioned to him about my event. I didn't want to invite him to the event because it's supposed so be our day but it's not. Didn't mention the place and time to him. And he didn't ask. On the other hand, I want so much to share with him a very important day in my life. This love I have for him is very different, yes, I do want to be with him but at the same time, I just want his good.

Feel so empty even though I've been so busy past few weeks. Nothing seems to satisfy. I don't know what am I searching for. Sometimes I feel like this emptiness is going to engulf me whole, I don't know what to do with myself. I'm tired. Let's see what tomorrow brings.

posted by xblowfishx @ 12:09 AM